adventure for one

Standing out of shower. Reaching for towel. Standing. Towel in hand. Mist clouding bathroom. Open window. Mist rushes out of bathroom. Traffic rushing on road. Blood rushing through veins. Eyes rushing in head.

Putting towel over front of body. Chin touching towel. Back of body is hot. Hot water trickling by spine. Large drops trickling out of shower head. Towel - one side - slightly damp. Wet footprints in bath mat. Floor becoming a puddle underneath.

Looking in mirror for face. Can't find face. Rubbing back of fist in circular motion to see face. Face. Face looks redder than usual. Small drops of water sitting in eyebrows.

Open window rushing closer. Pressing. Window behind back. Looking straight ahead. Pushing window back into its place. Walking backwards to sit on window sill. Dangling legs towards floor. Dripping water in direction of gravity. Back of body. Still wet. Bare. Colder now. Facing traffic. Traffic still rushing. Traffic is LOUD.

Face disappearing in mirror again. Mirror is further away than before. Bathroom is less misty than before. Outside is not misty. Outside is smoggy. Eyes are foggy. Head is not misty or foggy - a little wet. Top of head is hot. Face. Red. Body is cold.

Legs dangling towards floor. Can't find floor. Reaching. Looking. Floor is very very far away. Sitting on window sill and feeling traffic is close. Mirror is across room. Floating. Face. Face is floating across room on mirror. Floor has disappeared. Sitting on a window sill. Very high up.

Taps turning themselves on. Water filling up large space. Quickly. Large ocean right to horizon. Over traffic. Splashing dangling legs. Bottom of towel is wet.

Throwing towel onto water. Diving off window sill onto towel. Cushioned. Floating. Feeling face is wet. Feeling water in belly button. Back is dry. Air on back through window. Traffic driving over skin. Feels good.

Wondering where I will float to. Hungry. Goosebumps on arms. Paddling with hands over edge of towel. Bored. Looking for people. Can only see water.

Blue. Blue blue blue blue blue. Blue. Blue. More blue. Bored. Hungry. Cold. No people. Blue. Traffic rushing underwater. Want to get to it. Diving down off towel into water. Whole body is wet. A little warmer. Hair is stringy. Need to brush hair.

Diving downwards. Looking at cars. Red car. Red car. Green car. Truck. White car. White car. White - toilet seat. Toilet seat floats past. Swimming to where toilet seat came from.

Swimming. Water is disappearing. Traffic getting louder. Swimming faster. Water almost all gone. Standing up. Walking. Cold. Goosebumps. Arriving back in bathroom. Floor. Window sill. Window sill in its place. Stern look at window sill.

Looking over shoulder. Bathroom door locked. Turning around to face door. Turning back to toilet. Stern look at toilet. Turning to mirror. Side on to toilet. Looking.

Face. Not red. Stern look at self. Picking up soggy towel. Holding at arm's length. Looking at towel. Looking at mirror. Hearing traffic. Looking straight ahead. Seeing peripheral vison. Air freshener toppling sideways off toilet cistern. First night sleeping alone in twenty four nights.